I think I was missing something for a long time. About what? About me, myself. I lost something inside of me and I could n 't even see what I wanted to be or what I was like... Or maybe I could say , so called "my goals" or "my dreams". It sounds like a bit childish and selfish, I know that. So I didn't know how to share this feeling with other people... Anyway, I was so clear about my life before when I was young like 18 or so. Now, I can barely see what my life is about , or what the meaning of my life is ? I couldn't answer that too. In these past few months, I was suffering from many things. And.... Today, I remembered what my dream was when I was young, and I felt that dream is still the same. Because I haven’t changed , I am me. And what was that dream? It is kinda simple thing. But for me it is very important for surviving in this world. I was sick sometimes ago...